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Internal Exile

I can hear voices and I see other people,

But I just can’t seem to connect with them,
There is a veiled shadow that clings to me,
And it seems to render me all but invisible,

And when I dare to make myself known,
I stumble and stagger to carry conversation,
Constantly making mistakes and blunders,
I see gestures but nothing makes any sense,
Frustration and Anger are so identical to me,
I cannot and dare not try to tell them apart,

The sharp, icy dread of making eye contact
stabs into me with reckless abandonment,
Mind overwhelmed by such social nuances,
Thoughts jumbling themselves into a mess,
People become unnerved by my presence,
Try as I might, I can’t make a connection,

And then a dark, infernal voice bubbles up,
A voice I’ve known so well for so long now,
“Run away now, you just don’t belong here,
There’s no place in society for your Autism,
Go back into the cold shadows of the void,”

I open my mouth in desperate protest but
no words will dare to come to my defense,
Instead, Guilt and Shame pour past my lips,
Acridly burning as they force their way down,
Following by the freezing grip of isolation as
it pulls me, dragging me back into the abyss,

Watery shadows rushing in a great deluge,
Closing in on me and submerging my mind,
With my last gasp, I curse a world gone cold,
Fighting the exhaustion of futile frustration,

The urge to let the shadows drown me away,
I fight to resist the siren call of eternal silence.

By: Hegemony read more @ http://allpoetry.com/Hegemony

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A Little Promotion…

Okay, I know this blog is actually a promotion blog, but I just wanted give a shout-out to a friend of mine on Weebly. You might know her as Princess Poetry and has been a great help to this blog. She has been one of my most faithfull contributors in this blog. She writes on all kinds of topics so you are sure to find something to like about her. You can found her work here http://poeticpromise.weebly.com/ https://www.facebook.com/PoeticPromises

I will never work for some big corporation!

I am serious I just won’t ever work for any big corporation no matter how much they pay me. Okay maybe I might work for some because believe it or not just about everything in this country is own by some big corporation of some sort but by work I am talking about writing. I recently have been thinking about making writing into my long life career. I don’t know if I will actually do it yet but if I do it won’t for the big man won’t be part of it. I know it’s the cliché thing to say as would be writer but it’s true. I feel like writers today are more and more losing their freedom to write about what they really want. I mean people are really bias  and I don’t think my writing would actually please my boss when I talk about  things he really don’t like. I know there is a lot of gullible people out there that truly believe that there is no such thing as a hidden agenda in the entertainment industry. As long as their people are happy and keep thinking that then your boss won’t care about those who don’t. And by people I am talking about the majority of people consuming their product. Whether you are a comic book writer or sponsored blogger or a writer for some TV show or movies you will at some point have to write something you really don’t believe in. Needless to say most of these writers get over it once they see their pay check but for me belief is everything! I believe in a lot of stuff and if you ever force me to believe otherwise or act against it I will fight you! Okay maybe not a physical fight since I also don’t believe in violence but I will talk you to death. I feel like writers don’t really have a choice anymore because there is no such thing as an independent panel for where we can say whatever we want and make money. You can’t blame their editor or producers too much since just like everyone else they are trying to make the most of amount money they possibly can. They are humans too and humans are selfish. You can pretend not to be selfish all you want but deep down we all want something, in their case it’s good rating. The better the rating the more viewers and the more viewers the more sponsors they get and the more of that means more money. Even publishing companies or newspapers are in on this nowadays. If they don’t think that your novel or article don’t fit their agenda they will make you change it or reject it. Yeah I am ever going there and say the news because if they don’t tell you stuff that will make you freak out you won’t view them. I mean there is always the internet but even that too is about people pleasing too. If you don’t give your viewers what they want they will hate you or just not view your content anymore and just like TV viewership shtuff in crucial (no that was not a typo shtuff is a real word in head). Trying to find people who will like your stuff can be hard and if you do they will never be enough of them to pay the bills. If you want to make real money on that stuff and quit your day job your only option is your mother’s basement. What I am trying to say here is that this world is all about people pleasing or at least the world of entertainment is. We all want people to like us and that means we care what people think about us. If you are not the worker trying to please your faceless boss you are the boss trying to please a public. I am not saying  there aren’t people are lucky that their beliefs are just so happen to match the public’s interest. To those people I say “good for you”. You got lots of YouTuber vloggers that fit that category perfectly. But what happen if you are like me and think that your views are way too radical that even hipsters and mainstreams won’t like it. I guess I might work got a big corporation after all but only if  they pay me enough so that my whole family won’t ever have to work in their lives ever again until they die.