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Darkness never terrified me

It is hideous, but not horrendous.
It is bleak, but not barren.
It might be cruel, but never wild.
It is blind, but not despairful.
It is desolate, but not despicable.
It might be bitter, but hardly a dreader.
It might grow sullen, but hardly grows sour.
It can bring you danger, but not doom.
It can take you to unknowingness, but not to lost.
It can show you the way to gloom, but not the way to Hell.
It is something that lies in the horizon between Faith and Terror.
It is a shelter, decent yet agonizing, without windows and a door.
This is what I call darkness.
This is how darkness happens to be.

Across the silence of its humble look,
I’m always there, perched and calm,
In the middle of a heavy wisp
Shrouded by a dark curtain of gloom.

Yet, it is a gloom, neither wild nor desperate,
As darkness wraps me within its warm compassion
By a quilt of fragile love.

Huddled against its damp walls,
I flow along the spring of hope
With solitude, smelling everywhere.
As darkness spreads its elegant wings
Coated with the jewels of gloom,
A cold touch nips me
Just like a feather, settling with a tender touch,
On a delicate arm.

And I feel, ever so safe and overwhelmed.

BY: Solitary Star

(Y)our love

love

not sure of what I’m feeling

if only you gave me the time
hearts are not for stealing
but maybe I could share mine
we already share our laughter
some hours of our lives
those things also matter
not just straight dives
head-on into the pool
and while I can only slowly sink in
carefully, unlike a fool,
once I’m in the water
I’ll be there through thick and thin

give me time to look at the outside
before I enter your bounds
let me see you, large and wide,
let me hear your sweetest sounds
give me time, grant me longer
understand that time makes me stronger

but if you’re in a hurry
then leave me behind
I’ll watch you run off, blurry
from the tears that make me blind
and in the end,
when you’re almost out of sight,
these words I will send:
goodbye, may your future be bright

BY: Sara TK

Whatever Remains

The remnants of the night tend to linger in my clothes;

the scent of liquor won’t leave my vest,
nor will that girl’s perfume, who was trying her best
my favorite shirt still smells of cigarette smoke,
or the drunken breath of the older bloke
the unsynchronised beats of the music failed to entice me
no sweat seeped into my skirt, I didn’t set myself free
nor did I get lost in the ogling man’s eyes,
turning him down was his most unpleasant surprise
I didn’t come close to anyone’s lips,
that reeked of mistakes and unfortunate slips
I went home with a friend, who remained by my side
kissed him good night, let everything else slide

And the following morning, when only memories remain
I can wash out the proof of their existence, though to me, it’s all the same
Because at least I can make all these disappear,
while you, I cannot
you are always right here
in my mind, never to be forgot

BY: Sara TK

From One To Two

The quiet in my room is bliss
compared to the noise in my head
your name resounds, it’s you I miss
though I should be focusing on me instead

and while I could blast away my thoughts
with music oh so loud
while I could take a million shots
there is one thing I do not doubt

in every single song I’ll hear
I’ll look back on our past year
another glass to my lip, I’ll steer
until you are no longer here
until my mind is blissfully clear

but in case I can’t have a drink or ten
and there is no cure for this disease
I’ll just think about our ‘back when’
and pretend our parting was a breeze

the sounds in my head won’t die down
your smile is etched into my memories
if only I could escape our town
and forget our entire history

but I made a sacrifice for my own good
and while I regret my decision so far
I know
I hope one day I’ll be where I should
and look back fondly on that healed up scar

By: Sara TK

The Reason Why

babies cry
because they know
what awaits them in
this life

babies cry
because they know
the labor they will go
through
by force

babies cry
because they know
that if they do not
shed tears now
they will shed
too many
whilst
growing
up

babies cry
because they know
of unhappiness to
come
with
far too little
happiness
inbetween

babies cry
because they know
of all the misery
heading for
them
with
no way out
but death

babies cry
because they know
there is no
solution
yet
in this world

babies cry
because they know
and only stop
because they forget

By Sara TK

Home

hands

Tonight I won’t go home
unless I reside in your embrace
and breathe at ease at last

Tonight I won’t go home
unless your eyes mine will trace
and drown in them fast

Tonight I won’t go home
unless your voice speaks my name
and echoes within my chest

Tonight I won’t go home
unless I enter your game
and treat losing as a fest

Tonight I won’t go home
it’s something I can’t do
Tonight I won’t go home
unless home is you

By: Sara TK