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It was all coming back again; the thoughts, the madness, the anxiety, and the stress I’ve been dealing with for these past years. It’s killing me softly. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I wanted to end all of these sufferings with just a click of a gun. I had never been trusted by anyone around me. I was working on my own. Pay the house rent and expenses for school. My family? They all disowned me. My dad never even appreciates all I achieved. All he could see was mistakes and mistakes alone. I worth just a trashcan to them and I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. I deserve to be respected and trusted. They bring me to this world and I never ask them to bring me and just treat me like this.

I had a break up too just ten days ago. This guy just broke up with me because he can’t take the pressure I’m giving into the relationship. Because I had too much problem but I guess it’s not the only reason. Moving on with too much problem is very hard but I am trying my best to do so. I am praying that writing this can help with my depression. I know I’m not the only one having these thoughts. All I could say is fight. We still had ourselves to lean on. People can never understand us. They never would.

 

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Plastic

I don’t understand the reason for plastic surgery,

Why can’t someone accept their natural beauty?

They’ve been destroying all their body parts little by little

Replacing their flesh with toxic and fake fiber.

 

Maybe it’s because of how the society acts and talks

Maybe it’s because of bullying folks

Maybe it’s because of insecurity and inferiority

Or their obsession with ideal beauty.

 

It’s sad to see people going under the knife

They were much prettier with their natural face,

Now they look more disturbed and distorted,

Filter their faces with light and darkness

 

To all the people out there who never felt acceptable

Love thyself and do things according to virtue

Instead of spending a million bucks to a plastic fake nose job

Give it to the poor people who needed much

 

In that way, you’re much prettier than any plastic beauty this world has to offer

Because your heart is full of love and humbleness

A beauty that worth more than a million bucks

Maintaining its natural resources no matter what.

The Ballad of the Two Hearts

Once, there was a child born in the midst of spring,

She was very pretty that the goddess of beauty envies her

She put a curse one night while the baby was sleeping,

The curse that will make her ugly, dark and thin

 

She grew up been bullied by everyone in her town,

Nobody ever plan to befriended her

She’s always been a loner all her life since her mother died,

All she could feel was pain and injustice inside.

 

One day while she was sitting outside the oak tree,

Her bullies come and bit her till she can’t walk and see

A man rescued her who happened to be

The blind ninja whom she always watched in a distance by the tree,

 

He let her entered the cottage from where he stay,

He gave her herbs to heal all her wounds and so she’ll be

Fine so soon so they can know each other more

Lived together away from those people

 

Soon her lonely heart was filled with gleeful joy,

Because at the end someone choose to be with her at all

With the handsome ninja whom she always adore

The promise he made to protect her forevermore,

 

But the goddess of Beauty was not happy to witness this

She called all her pigeons to find that special herb

That can help the blind ninja to see

How beautiful he thinks his wife could be.

 

Soon the ninja’s eyes filled with light,

Little by little he gain his sight

Witnessing this, the girl run out to flee

She’s afraid he will judge her the same way.

 

She cried out loud because of despair,

While the ninja run out looking for her,

Soon she stop by the bank of the river

The exact time the ninja stop to get some water

 

Their eyes met and their two hearts sing a ballad only two of them knew

The ninja ask, “My lady, I think I know you.”

She stared at him never know what to say,

As he realise she is his wife who run away.

 

The ninja come to hug her as her eyes filled with tears,

He whispered a word that every heart will melt,

“I’m afraid I lost you. Please don’t leave me again.

I don’t care whoever you are, I still love you the same,”

 

Then he kissed her sweet little lips as the forest start to sing

A glorious love song until the end

The two people who love each other in pure harmony and joy

That even goddess can’t destroy.

Serendipity

Across the border line of solitude,

Is the yearning of one soul’s cross.

  Just like a sheep who lost her mob,

A woman’s heart without a love.

 

But the alteration is yet to come.

The coldness shall be filled with warm.

Ill-fated is now gone.

The sun is yet to shine.

 

Susurrus talisman come knocking to her door

Bringing her with enormous treasure

Her hopes comes in the highest soar

 Serendipity you never expect for.

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